You Are Enough
Last week I had an ugly meltdown in my closet.
What started out as an innocent packing experience turned into a cleaning my closet out because nothing fit me anymore.
Been there? It sucks. I don’t wish it on my worst enemy.
I was trying on dress after dress. this fit me last year, why is it too short now? and this one, it used to be loose on me, now it’s pulled tight on my chest. The pile on the ground next me to was growing by the minute. I stood naked staring at my closet, soul crushed and tears flowing.
Well fuck it. Why stop with dresses? there’s no way these jeans fit me, they’re a size 10. these skirts? they don’t stand a chance. The pile kept growing and so did my level of disappointment in myself. Why does this happen to me? why is my body changing so much? Where is this weight coming from?
I sat down in my pile of clothes with tears down my face. At that moment my emotions went from self deprecating to feeling like a fraud.
How can I tell other gals that they are more than a number on a tag? How can I preach about loving every roll, dimple and stretch mark when I have a meltdown because clothes I once wore don’t fit?
Instead of dwelling longer (I was very close to climbing in bed to cry), I decided this my chance to help someone else, just like me. I grabbed my camera and tripod, then my pen and paper and made the choice to flip my narrative. We’ve all been there and it sucks. There’s no sugar coating it. But next time you’re overcome with emotions over clothes in your closet, remember you’re not alone and tomorrow will be a better day.
You are enough. And your clothes can suck it. Let me say it one more time.. YOU. ARE. ENOUGH.